Jess posted this to another blog entry and followed it up with an email to me. Her comment speaks for itself. TL;DR version: TomZ is up to his old tricks. Whoever trusts Ralphie and him to be responsible board operators is crazy.
First off I would like to say that this comment has nothing to do with the original post, and that this is the one and only comment I will be making on this subject.
I have heard allot of disturbing/humorous things that deal with my leaving.
Yes, I have left the hobby. I have found a good enough reason for me that makes me happy enough to decide that I wanted to retire. At this point I have no plans on coming back. Why didn’t I make a big announcement? Because as I have no plans on coming back at this point, I am not a future teller, I may come back in a month,year, two years or never, and guess what I am ok with that. I have found something that I wanted more than the hobby, with the money and all this fun drama lol. A few people knew that for the past few months this has been in my head, until I felt like I could no longer hobby and keep the other life I wanted for myself. I didn’t really care about the crazy reasons why I was hearing I was gone ( like jail or being arrested at penthouse- which I was dancing days at up until about a week at, or the fact that I shut down ahb.. a board based in a state I have never been and a board I know nothing of the owners or who even owned it further than Bradley) because my life no longer truly involves the hobby. But I decided to make this post after some i found very distrubing news.
It seems at a recent m and g Tomz said to a group of people why I left, where I work and other unture things about my life. He implied at one point he was on my facebook and in ” the know” of what I am doing. I haven’t spoke to Tomz since I left MWTZ and my fb is very private, also where he said I work is untrue, and the reasons why I left. Only one active person knows whats really going on with me and I keep in great contact with. But I was sickened by this, a (now) 28 year old provider decided it was time for her to walk away, I was getting burnt out and stressed and it was time. Yes, I do have a “normal” job, thankfully not where a board owner is announcing to a group of people where I am at. I have not seen a single person in a month, and was slowly pulling things down two months ago. I was not in jail… I was very much around, in the shadows but setting myself up to walk away. Anywho’s what I was really upset about was a board owner that has not spoken to the provider in question in years found it ok to tell a group of people where he thinks she works, whats she’s doing, and whatever ever rumors he has either a. heard or b. made up in his own head. I decided when I left to not make a big fuss about it, as even though I was setting myself up to leave, I didnt have a set date. I wasn’t going to be like oh! come see me now cuz Im leaving on this day. Because no I didn’t want that. I knew I was going be leaving soon but I didn’t know exactly when, then one day I woke up happy. I was happy without the hobby, and thinking of doing anything involved with the hobby made me unhappy, that was the day I left. A board owner should never try to attack a provider who has found something to move on for and wants, because I didn’t make a big drama over my leaving. I tried to do it as quietly as possible and just be gone, that’s what I needed for me, and at the end of the day it is my choice. It was good timing what with happened with AHB but come on , I had nothing to do with that, and from what I read on this board ANOTHER Seattle board went down that I wasn’t even on then they decided to pull out. ( hee hee) I was not arrested at PH, I was dancing there days until last week.. my bday and I didn’t want to pay the money to renew my dancing license because my hours at my new job are greatly increasing. I just feel that when a provider leaves just like when a guy leaves, everyone has their own reasons and none of them are wrong. Instead of a board owner trying to tear a girl down who as far as he knows is not around and has no real idea why she’s gone. Girls are going to come and go, and so are gents… that’s just how this is and I am happy in my new life and I am doing really well. Are there adjustments that I have had to make and relearn how to live a certain way? Yes of course, I became a women in the hobby. Are there things I miss about the hobby, yes there is. I can’t promise how long I’ll be gone or if I’ll ever come back. All I know is I am happy and doing well and board owners should stop trying to tear providers down and try lifting them up and being supportive…. But alas that’s part of the reason I did walk away like I did because of the gossip. But I hope all those who I did truly consider as a friend in this are doing well! And maybe we will run into each other again one day.